I would love to be able to report that I have reached easier paths on Rego land however, that would not be true.
My Middle Road twists and turns somewhere between 'ideal' and 'real'.
I love the concept of what it is known in Ayurveda as Dinacharya: 'dina' = day ; 'charya' = practice or routine. This in its essence refers to a daily routine that promotes health and well-being in alignment with our bodies' and nature's rhythms.
However, this is how it generally goes for me...
Ideal
1. Rise and shine at the the same time everyday 🐦
2. Have a good morning routine involving some form of gentle movement, meditation and a healthy nourishing breakfast 🧘🏻♀️
3. Have a refreshing shower, get dressed in, creatively put together, outfits with matching accessories 🚿
4. Work on developing Finding the Middle Road ; complete some online learning modules ; do some house cleaning ; food shopping ; catch up with family and friends ; etc... 📝
5. Do some weight training, a yoga session, go for a walk or cycle... 🏋♀️ anything to just get this amazing body moving
6. Cook a delicious dinner with fresh ingredients 🥗
7. Read or listen to a book, relaxing evening routine and go to bed early 📖
Real
1. Wake up feeling so fatigued that I need to remain in bed a little longer, I shall get up when my body decides to do so 🥱
2. Feel so crippled getting out of bed, my back hurts and my hands and feet are so painful from the palmar plantar side effect. The only movement is from the bedroom to the kitchen. Nourishing breakfast did I say? In my dreams... I will be lucky if I can even eat since my mouth is taking a beating from the side effects also 😖
3. Lay in a hot bath to alleviate aches and pains...by the time I get out and dry myself off, I am so exhausted that the only thing I put on is comfy loungewear and go back to bed for a nap 🛀💤
4. Wake up from nap feeling like a walking zombie, gather whatever energy I have to, at least, attempt to make a smoothie to get some calories in so I don't keep losing weight (and try not to destroy the blender by leaving a spoon inside it, ooops) ; cancel whatever social arrangements I may have 🧟♀️
5. If the weather is kind to me I might be able to move outdoors...to lay down on the sunlounger and rest in the fresh air listening to the birds 🌤
6. See what left overs I might have in the fridge or what I can raid from the freezer that will require minimum effort to prepare... a slice of toasted bread will do! 🍞
7. Crash on the sofa for the evening; might just be in the mood for an audio book or a mindless tv programme; brush my painful teeth as gently as I can and off to bed I go again... 💤
After two and a half months, I still have not quite found my way around these terrains, it is very much a work in progress...
During the week off treatment, just as I start to recover... along come the three weeks on the tablets again... already?! That's gone far too quickly 🙄
I accept this is a time for deep rest, my body needs kindness and nourishing love during this phase of the journey.
I try to explain how I feel by comparing it with a mobile phone battery. I am always running under 15% with the permanent 'needs charging' warning sign on 🙈
So for now I will Flow, Let Go & Surrender, simply hang my hammock between the trees of Rego land and allow mother nature to take care of me 🌳🌹🦅
"The best bridge between despair and hope is a good night's sleep."
- E. Joseph Cossman
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